A Client’s Experience Going from ‘Tolerating Myself, to Celebrating Myself’ with Mindbloom
Kerri is a mom, wife, remote worker, and yoga teacher.
Despite trying many holistic and traditional treatments, she continued to find herself stuck in a rut of anxiety and depressive symptoms.
Through the few weeks of her Mindbloom program, she was able to make the remarkable transition from “simply tolerating myself, to celebrating myself” as she told her Guide.
This article shares her experience, unique recommendations, and path toward healing and wholeness. Kerri has found Mindbloom so helpful that she is preparing to move into a second program. Some responses have been edited for clarity and understanding.
Can you share a bit about what your life was like before starting Mindbloom?
I always have had emotional highs and lows throughout my life, but all of a sudden I started noticing that the lows were becoming more frequent, and hitting a little more deeply. When the emotional lows would happen, I literally didn’t feel like I was in control of myself.
As a yoga teacher, I have a lot of mental health tools available to me — like yoga and meditation — but even those tools couldn’t help pull me out of that negative headspace.
That sounds very challenging. How did you make the decision to finally start working with Mindbloom?
After being in this state for a bit, I had some unfortunate events happen. My husband got sick, my friend passed away, and I realized that what was happening was bigger than me. I finally said that I’m going in, I’m going to commit to this and start from there.
Honestly, I was still scared when starting. I was thinking what happens if I take this tablet and it makes me worse? Some of it was about control. I’m doing something that yes, is legal, but I am relinquishing control and I hope it leaves me in a better space.
I had heard about ketamine treatment from my brother who had his own personal experiences. And with a lot of anxiety and a lot of chronic stress, I finally said I’m going in, I’m committing to this.
You started with the Basics program and have now completed it. Can you describe a bit of your experience in the program?
The first session is really to ramp you up into the process, the dosages can increase over the sessions.
I will tell you, the most profound part of the first session is that I had the most incredible felt sense that I was supported. I felt good. Really good.
As I continued the sessions, I noticed that each session was building on the foundation built by the prior one. I was noticing that if there was a trigger or event that would normally mess with my mood, these triggers just weren’t taking me to the same place anymore.
I have had chronic stress and anxiety with me for decades. But now at the end of the program, I know it hasn’t shown up in 8-10 weeks. The best way I can sum it up is that during the program wrap-up call, I said to my Guide: ‘instead of tolerating myself, I am now celebrating myself.’
What a beautiful process, from tolerating to celebrating yourself. Do you have any advice or thoughts for potential clients who are still considering ketamine treatment?
Simply, it’s worth a shot. Give it a try. This is worth it.
I think it’s beautiful that you can do it from the comfort of your own home. You don’t have to worry about being driven back home, or the angst of traffic. It’s nice to be able to seamlessly roll back into your day at whatever pace you choose.
Finally, the difference between what happens here versus anything else is that the way the treatment works is that it allows you to experience what may happen, or what you may feel when you step out of your own way.
Are you considering ketamine therapy or Mindbloom and want to find out if you’re eligible for treatment? Take our client survey here to begin your own journey toward healing and wholeness.
This article is for informational purposes only and is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice. Always talk to your doctor about the risks and benefits of any treatment. If you are in a life-threatening situation, call the National Suicide Prevention Line at +1 (800) 273-8255, call 911, or go to the nearest emergency room.
Ketamine is not FDA-approved for the treatment of depression or anxiety. Learn more about off-label uses here.
Side effects of ketamine treatment may include: altered sense of time, anxiety, blurred vision, diminished ability to see/hear/feel, dry mouth, elevated blood pressure or heart rate, elevated intraocular or intracranial pressure, excitability, loss of appetite, mental confusion, nausea/vomiting, nystagmus (rapid eye movements), restlessness, slurred speech, synesthesia (a mingling of the senses).
Do not proceed with ketamine treatment if any of the following apply to you:
- Allergic to ketamine
- Symptoms of psychosis or mania
- Uncontrolled high blood pressure
- CHF or other serious heart problem
- Severe breathing problem
- History of elevated intraocular or intracranial pressure
- History of hyperthyroidism
- Other serious medical illness
- Pregnant, nursing, or trying to become pregnant
Ketamine has been reported to produce issues including, but not limited to, those listed below. However, lasting adverse side-effects are rare when medical protocols are carefully followed.
While ketamine has not been shown to be physically addictive, it has been shown to cause moderate psychological dependency in some recreational users.
- In rare cases, frequent, heavy users have reported increased frequency of urination, urinary incontinence, pain urinating, passing blood in the urine, or reduced bladder size
- Ketamine may worsen problems in people with schizophrenia, severe personality disorders, or other serious mental disorders.
- Users with a personal or family history of psychosis should be cautious using any psychoactive substance, including ketamine, and discuss potential risks with your MindBloom® clinician before proceeding with treatment.
- The dissociative effects of ketamine may increase patient vulnerability and the risk of accidents.
To promote positive outcomes and ensure safety, follow these ketamine treatment guidelines:
- Do not operate a vehicle (e.g., car, motorcycle, bicycle) or heavy machinery following treatment until you’ve had a full night of sleep
- Refrain from taking benzodiazepines or stimulants for 24 hours prior to treatment
- Continue to take antihypertensive medication as prescribed
- Avoid hangovers or alcohol intake
- Refrain from consuming solid foods within 3 hours prior to treatment and liquids within 1 hour prior to treatment
- Ketamine treatment should never be conducted without a monitor present to ensure your safety